on deck!!

so life has been pretty crazy... well i should clarify WORK has been really crazy.  but monday i came in from recess to see this in my inbox!!

i think i squealed and held my breath and was confused all at the same moment!!  i scanned through the e.mail to pick us much information as i could, as quickly as i could, and then called evan.  :)
so, on deck confirms that we are approximately 1-3 months away from getting our referral.  when we submitted our dossier we were told that we wouldn't hear anything about our referral for about six months, so to think that it could be sooner is REALLY crazy!!  of course there is a very real chance that it will be december or later that we receive our referral... which i am working on keeping as my focus.  there were a lot of referrals and court dates given this week, i'm sure most of the movement is from the courts reopening from being closed during the rainy season.
walking through this process of adoption has been very.... unique...  i think it is hard to put into words.  as excited as evan and i are about meeting and bringing our son home, i often feel so disconnected.  it is weird and scary and exciting to think how different our family will be eight months from now.  i have been praying a lot about this.  I have been praying for him, for his family, and this enormous decision they have or are soon going to make to place their son into the hands of someone else to raise.  thinking about this makes me pray for evan and i a lot!  i pray for wisdom and patience, for compassion, grace, and mercy.  i pray for questions that will come up and tensions that will arise in two years, seven years, and thirteen years from now...really for every year!  instead of letting my heart get anxious, i just pray about everything i can think of and every once in a while i cry.  :)  (maybe more than once in a while  :) )
thank you again for your prayers, support, encouragement, and excitement.  it all is so precious to us!!